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Saturday, March 30, 2024

The Golden Record Preview №2

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C6: Kick Me!

Back to it for Monday Morning, this time, with an alien, though Azathoth didn’t seem to be a morning person. He took the shower while I singlehandedly drank the first pot of coffee before brewing another pot and throwing him out of the shower with the vague hopes that he didn’t run out all the hot water.

Mom had made my favorite breakfast for us, something that Azathoth seemed to enjoy since coming to Earth, though I had to admit that I was still curious about what might be waiting for me, should he take me to his planet at some point in the future.

By the time we were finished with breakfast, we were both at close-enough to full power, each with a to-go cup of coffee as I drove us to the school, a building that was bland and stereotypical enough that it couldn’t have stood out in an empty parking lot. I wasn’t sure what to expect, so I had Azathoth wait in my Volkswagen with the ragtop up until I came out for him.

I was glad that I did.

“Mister Davis,” a voice said, expectantly, “I didn’t see you around, Friday.”

The owner of the voice was a bald man, dressed in a tweed suit and, likely, was twice my mother’s age.

“I’m sorry about Friday, Mister Strickland, but I had a bit of an emergency come up and I couldn’t really-”

“Let me give you a nickel’s worth of free advice, Son,” he said, walking to his office with me, “All of this hubbub you’re after, it’s not real. There are no ‘Little Green Men’ out there, looking at us from Mars, there’s no vampire societies, and there’s no way that someone, anyone, could eat a raw, uncooked steak and not get sick!” he went on, “Son, Seth, you’ve got real potential, all you’d need to do is apply yourself and stop slacking so-damn-much! You’re throwing your life away.”

“Oh, yessir,” I said before he turned around and stuck his finger in my face.

“I’m serious, Mister Davis!” he said, “Don’t you want to be successful like your parents? You’re sure-as-hell not acting like it if you do!”

“Just you wait, Mister Strickland, I’m going to prove you wrong.”

“Ha!” he laughed, “I’d like to see you try, you slacker!” he pointed out the door, “Now, get to class and pretend to not be wasting time.”

“Alright,” I said, turning and leaving his office. As soon as the door closed, however, I went out to the car to get Azathoth and bring him inside to homeroom. This semester, I had English and Math, as well as two blocks where I was a library aide.

My homeroom, due to being one of the classrooms in the library building, didn’t have the usual desks in there. Rather, it was a setup of tables, each with two chairs, much like the tables and chairs in the library. There were only three classrooms in the building, plus another one or two, but the English classroom in the building was the only one that was large enough to hold a class of thirty. The others were similar in size to large closets or, in the case of the auxiliary teacher’s room, about the size of a small meeting room.

Thankfully, seats weren’t assigned in high school like they were in elementary and middle school, though that usually meant that in science classes, I would generally be standing at the lab table, the only exception was in ninth grade, though none of that bothered me because I’d usually study the topic in the library and take my own notes on my own terms.

Still, I was glad to have the table in the back corner all to myself because, today, it meant that I could be by Azathoth’s side.

“Okay, Seth, we’re going to be finishing up The Great Gatsby,” Miss Park said, noticing that I wasn’t packing my things to head to the library when the bell rang, “I’m sure you’re finished with the book, so you can just go sit in the library like-” she said, looking up and seeing Azathoth next to me and falling into stunned silence.

“I was out for a good reason,” I said after she blinked and let her mouth fall open.

“I, uh…”

By this point, everyone in the class had their attention focused on Azathoth and me.

“Is this normal?” he asked.

“Not in the slightest,” I answered, “Miss Park, aliens are real, and apparently, vampires are too.”

She let her head drop.

“I figured something like this would happen,” I muttered.

“Seth… please, just go to the principal’s office… anywhere but in here today.”

After a few moments, Miss Park regained her composure and immediately went into denial about the whole situation as the first block class filed into the room and, immediately, all eyes turned to Azathoth before Miss Park brough herself to get the attention of the class once-again focused on herself.

“Alright, class, take your seats,” she said, “Today, we’ll be continuing with our discussion of The Great Gatsby.”

I felt thankful to be sitting in the back of the classroom with Azathoth as I wrote a note to him in an empty notebook to give him context while making it look as though I was taking notes from the discussion. I can say, with certainty, that he didn’t see the reasoning of that literature being a required part of the curriculum, especially after I’d written down my own thoughts on the piece for him in no uncertain terms.

“Who, here, can tell me the significance of the green light at the end of Daisy’s dock?” Miss Park asked as I was reminded why I preferred modern science fiction while hearing a girl give her analysis about the American Dream.

Miss Park nodded, “Very good, Avery. Now, I’d like to hear from someone new,” her eyes landed on Azathoth and me, “Go ahead, either of you two.”

Saturday, March 23, 2024

Screwing Around & Whatnot

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So, the progress on The Golden Record has been going slower than it has in the past, but that's for a number of reasons. Firstly, my old laptop started to die at the end of February, so I've been getting accustomed to having a ThinkPad T14 (and all of its bells and whistles, that is most definitely a double-edged sword for me, plus I wanted something that would last me for several years to come) and also moving all of my writing from my DoK over to OneDrive, something I probably should've started before earlier today. Granted, I think when I get everything sorted out as far as what to copy and what not to copy, I'll be okay, but for now, I'm going to go back to the tried-and-true method of stepping away from my project for a while (maybe a couple of weeks, maybe a month) and looking back at it with fresh eyes after some time has passed. Granted, I'm still going to keep writing, to keep the creative juices flowing, if nothing else. Still, I'm not going to try to rush it like I had tried to do with Aleks meets Inga, mostly because I don't want this to turn into something that I don't think is even up to my basically-nonexistent standards, though that has yet to be seen, if I'm being honest with myself. Really, that book is on a perpetual back burner, even through I could probably finish proofing it to my eyes within a day or two and get a friend of mine to go over it to see what I'll inevitably miss.

Letting that crap go for now, the main character in An Exercise in Frustration isn't quite a personification of myself anymore, at least not to my eyes, though Aleksey Buryakov isn't getting the axe yet, or ever. I don't really do that to my characters. Granted, because of that, I've got another character (I think I mentioned this in a previous post, but I'll do it again. Redundancy and all), who is a bat, living in Alpines City, and the character is set in 1995. For those of you who know the link to the website I post short stories on, you'll probably be seeing the first of him publicly within a month's time, or maybe not. Again, it all depends on how well I can get my brain to work (something I don't have high hopes for as I'm still at 60% through The Outsiders, and I've had the book since Christmas, not to mention I've got another book added to my collection, A Kim Jong Il Production, so that's fun), so everything is all dependent on… you know.

I know I haven't given much of a thinker this time, and I do apologize for that, but I do, however, also respect the things that come from just shutting your brain off from time to time, though I think mine's power button is broken because, even with medicine, my mind is still going when I'm asleep. Granted, it's March and I'm in the same place that Top Gear almost got themselves killed in by painting slogans on cars and driving through the state, so the medicine keeps me awake for different reasons for the while. I'll get everything sorted soon, I hope. Anyway, I'll likely put up a preview of a different part of the story like I used to (somewhere in the range of five hundred and a thousand words, or thereabouts) sometime during the week and give another preview, as well as possibly upload character bios again… I do miss not racking my brain to come up with an article on the spot, it was just… easier, somehow. Granted, when I started this blog/website up, I didn't even consider the idea of a set schedule, then I realized that Google lets you time posts, so they go up at 7:00/7:30a Central on Saturdays now, given that nothing causes me to deviate from getting something written the other six days of the week! It doesn't, but just in case, I do tend to keep something with me on the ready all of the time, just in case of a good fire. Also, I'm going to start putting a link to my Kobo bookstore on these pages from now on because I've recently discovered that the post I have set to always be pinned on the front page doesn't behave on mobile. It behaves on standard desktop browsers, but not on phones or most tablets I've seen it showing on, so it's entirely likely that you guys have been missing out, even though I consider myself nowhere close to being a good author. Really, it's just therapeutic, and if I can make a buck or two on the side, then why not. You know? Anyway, Happy Easter to those of you that celebrate it!

Wednesday, March 13, 2024

The Golden Record Leak №1

While I was sipping on my coffee this morning, I decided that I would go ahead and upload the first five pages of The Golden Record because it's taking much longer than I had originally thought it would. Anyway, that being said, here's the link below.

The Golden Record - Preview №1

Saturday, March 9, 2024

Something So Right Is So Wrong…

Look at the picture. It's a ThinkPad running Microsoft Windows for Workgroups 3.11 (I don't give a crap, I need a TCP/IP stack, and that's the best way I know of to get it, sosumi). Obviously, though, something is off about it, despite both brands being, I don't know… existent in 1993. Granted, I have it running in 86Box (PCem was too limiting and had not enough documentation when it worked), but it's still very much out-of-place, much like the fact that the actual laptop is named «Cow», but that's a different story that involves a copy of More Windows 98 for Dummies, as well as a few other books and medias. I also have a picture of this thing running Mac OS, which is just trippy, considering what it is, but that's beside the point. Where there's a will and some madness, there's a way. Granted, I don't say what I'm doing is particularly useful, but it's a neat party trick, no less, though this was mainly started by me wanting (and, at some points, needing) a visual for some of my writing. If it hasn't been stated, I go down rabbit holes all of the time! Now is no exception, it's just a quirk that takes several people, sometimes, to get me to come back to sensibility. There's usually a reason for that, though, but I'll probably never figure it out.

Being headstrong (or a hardass, to use a more colorful term) can result in some form of close-mindedness, though that's not always the case. It usually is. Granted, if you stand firm for what you believe in, you can achieve some pretty amazing things. That should go without saying, but, considering what I've seen from the young generation, I'm starting to have other opinions. Anyway, while I'd like to deny everything I've seen, I try to avoid living delusions. Still, I'd like to think that there's some form of hope, even through my cynical worldview. I've been able to get some steam going back on The Golden Record, thankfully, so that's where this little rant came from. In the story, while we learn that Seth isn't particularly assertive, he's somewhat headstrong, stands for what he believes in, and also follows results. Sorry if that isn't the usual way I go about bringing up these kinds of details, but some things there's no gradual way to go about them, and bringing up this topic is one of them. The title of this post, «Something So Right Is So Wrong…», it sums up what I like to believe a number of free thinkers are having to mentally fight when they don't go with the grain of what's commonly accepted. Sure, having boundaries can be a good thing, but at the same time, it's also good to step out of them and do some exploring, yourself, even if what your target is explored. There's eight billion people alive right now, so that's at least that many viewpoints.

For my third paragraph, I'm going to try and figure out exactly how to write something that makes sense while not running on more than half-a-pot of coffee while apparently talking about using kimchi jars from Walmart for drinking glasses (being one among many of the things I've been using them for). Think about being unapologetically yourself, in spite of the people who are probably thinking that you should have someone make sure you don't blow yourself up (or some other crazy excuse). When you take into consideration the actual size of our narrow slice and think about the proportion of our tiny speck in relation to that of the entire cosmos, thing start to begin to have answers and solutions, if only hypothetical ones, but still solutions, nonetheless. The questions and oddities that we as humans have, find, and ask all have answers, but they have to be searched for. I'm not saying that some advanced, space-faring alien civilization has the answer to why I have a 90s telephone on my desk, or have an interest to run ancient software on my stuff (those change by the hour, it seems like), but the larger questions, the ones that make you think about your own philosophy in life, those are the ones that need to be searched for, even if they remain unanswered. I know I've used space and the cosmos as a figure, but in reality, it's not just the physical aspect that we need to worry about, it's every aspect.

Saturday, March 2, 2024

Science Fiction and Our Speck in the Cosmos

We're all connected, somehow, with each other… even if we don't know it, and today, I'd like to explore that with you. Sure, we're all living on the same planet, but that's not exactly what I mean. Every human being, every person, can trace a connection to someone else. As of the time I'm writing this, the population is at approximately eight billion. Now, consider the different ways you choose to spend your time. It isn't appropriate to say that you, reader, are one-in-a-million, because, mathematically, that would imply that there are eight thousand people, at least, exactly like you. What I will say, though, is that, while great mind think alike, the term «Great Mind» is subjective, and I don't mean that in what someone is going to say is a condescending manner, no. In a way, the term «Great Mind» is pretext until a skillset is known, and even then, all of the awards, metals, certificates, everything you could get is entirely subjective. I don't want to sound bleak, but it is. At the same time, we're just one tiny speck in the cosmos, which brings me to my real topic: alien life.

Alien life is a staple of science fiction, I believe that goes without saying, but when you take into account the sheer size of the universe, science fiction goes from being Star Trek and Back to the Future to, in some form, asking the question of what all is out there. I'm sure, though that no sci-fi writers ever go so far as to ask the question, but I like to keep the idea in the back of my mind, much the same way that I don't like to make assumptions about anything. I feel like it's a little narcissistic to mention, but at the same time, this is a website I made for my writing (even if it has turned into a place where I try to post thought-provoking articles every week instead). Think of the Voyager probes with The Golden Record (Voyager 1 and Voyager 2), they're carrying a golden record with the intent on being found by intelligent life, the same goes for the Pioneer Plaque (shown to the right) on Pioneer 10 and Pioneer 11. If anyone wants to make some comment about the "content", yes I'm aware that NASA etched a nude man and woman into a plaque that they shot up into space in the early 70s for aliens to find. That being said, if you have complaint, take it up with NASA. Anyway, on a cosmic timescale, we're incredibly young. Taking our first steps, young. Only hearing sounds instead of words, young. There's very little that we do know for certain when we mark out hypotheticals and anything that we cannot verify for certain, which is truly a whole lot.

Going against the grain of my own words, I do want to talk about my upcoming book, even if it's placed, factually speaking, squarely within the category of «fiction». No, the characters aren't anthropomorphic, it's a callback to the first character I created, in that regard, but that's not important. What I'd like to talk about is the premise of it. An eleventh grader (Seth Davis) finds an alien (Azathoth, seen to the left with his personal assistant and in mostly human clothing) and, because of this one event on an otherwise unmemorable evening, he has his entire perception of reality shifted, solely because life exists beyond the planet Earth. Up to that point in time, the most reality-shifting thing that had happened was that the internet was becoming known about by more people; a letter that used to take days or weeks to be delivered was now possible to be delivered, anywhere in the world, within minutes. Everything we see and do, with very few exception, has been limited to our one blue/green rock in the cosmos. I'm gonna say something, and part of it's just going to be to rile up a few people (might as well own it when it happens, am I right?). If extraterrestrial life exists, and they come to Earth after discovering the plaques and/or records that we've shot out into the cosmos, they're not going to care if someone's a commie or not. They're not going to care if you've pirated a movie. They're not going to care if you like weird music from Asia (I'm not referencing most people's tastes here, I have no shame in my own music library). They're not going to care if you like iPhone or Android, none of that will matter to them. As much as we like for it to matter to us (and as much as we have to babysit a few idiots who most certainly shouldn't be in charge of anything more than their own damn lunch, pardon the French), ultimately, none of it matters to anyone except for who created those constructs, which, in this case, is humanity. In a way, I guess I could say, with a strong degree of accuracy, that The Golden Record (the story) is about perception and how we're just one small speck in the cosmos.