Just curious: Who do you think you are to you? I know it’s a silly question, but it’s a valid one. I used to be a Seth, then over time, I grew into an Aleks, but I’m not an Aleks anymore. The other night, I did some self-reflection of who I was to me. I’ve never lost that connection to the old and the weird, but personality-wise, I’m not like any character in Aleks’s history anymore. No, I’m not trying to be a fictional character, but the reason that I’m doing this is because writing is therapeutic to me. Could I make a career out of it? Probably not. I’m generally thinking too far out into left field for that. Anyway, so I’ve built a new character who goes by the name «Link». No relation to Zelda 2: The Adventures of Link (that was the second video game I ever played on the GBA SP and in my whole life), I chose the name because it’s a bit of a moniker to what he does: he’s a hacker, but less in a software-sense and more in the physical, frankensteining sense of the word. He doesn’t use his real name (it’s Jackson Hughes) and takes the phrase “It’s my life to live and I’ll live it how I damn-well please!” to heart.
I’ve imagined him as both a human and a furry, though I feel like I’ll be writing him more as a human because I’m not quite sure what I want to do with him yet. Similar to what eventually became Aleks, Link is, in a way, a projection of how I see myself… just a more up-to-date version of it. For a while now, Aleks has been my “main” fursona/character/whatever, but despite the similarities, I never felt like I was
in their world (for better or worse). Sure, I had my moments, but at the end of the day, I was
basically coming to terms with the fact that, while he
may have been an extension of my self in a very true form, Aleks no longer fills that role.
Obviously, I’m not getting everything accurate to myself (Link is how I see myself, so there’s
obviously some biasing and skewing), but the human representation is
about as close to a picture of me that I’ll give. It’s also an approximation of how I picture myself in day-to-day life. I guess that the
best way to explain it would be if you played VRChat, Minecraft, or Second Life. You make a character and life as that character in the game. Link is
my character, but for writing. I’ll admit that, while I’ve said and done some crazy things, at the end of the day, everyone needs an outlet. Whether that’s building battle bots or writing horrific revenge fantasies, the need is
most certainly there. Will this be the last you see of Link? Probably not. I intend to write him into my corner of the world I’ve made for my writing as my character in there, but they’ll mostly just be shorts on my Fur Affinity page (link is at the bottom of the page).
While I’m changing the roles I have for my characters somewhat, Aleks (and the line of characters that became him) will always be my favorite while Link is going to be my “Player Character” (for lack of a better term). The characters are always going to be there, they’ll always be mine, but now I feel like I can interact with them on a more-personal level.
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